October 2, 2010

My month started with a really good vibe. I was able to get the given activity right in just an hour I think.(Really proud of myself last night!) Ü


October 2, 2010. It's been 5 months since our last break-up and I think I'm doing better now, way better. I find it hard to think that you're no longer with me. I kinda get used to it that you're not around. But every time I had this thought, that I'm better now, my heart aches. Strange though. This past few days, I keep playing David Choi's By My Side which you said you dedicated to me only when I asked if it's for me. LOL.


As I'm counting the days, my mind gets more and more confused on whether I should be happy for myself that I finally find comfort in myself or should be sad about how things are going between us. It's still hard, really. But what can I do if this is really meant to happen? I just have to really accept it, deal with it even if it's as hard as breaking my own neck.


Trying hard is what it takes. I'll just have to go with the flow now and be happy with whatever it is that God has been preparing for me.


Think I need a hug. I feel like crying on my knees now. (tears)


You're all I see, in everything.

I just wanna hold you,
I just wanna kiss you,
I just wanna love you all my life.
I normally wouldn't say this,
but I just can't contain it.
I want you here forever,
right here by my side.


You're all I need, you're everything.


No one else will ever do.
I got a stubborn heart for you.
Call me crazy, but its true; I love you.
I didn't think that it would be,
you have made it clear to me.
You're all I need.